Post by shideh on Nov 2, 2012 19:35:13 GMT -5
adam michael miller
"don't you ever ever feel like your less than perfect"
fighting back the tears, mother reads the
NAME Adam Michael Miller
GENDER Male
NICKNAMES None
AGE 27
MEMBERGROUP local
POSITION car mechanic
SEXUALITY unsure
PLAYED BY jared padalecki
note again. sixteen candles burn in her mind,
HI I'M ADAM AND THIS IS ME:
Adam was, essentially, a mistake. Even though his parents wanted a large family eventually, Adam was conceived during a time when his parents were heavy into their work and were struggling to raise Adam's older siblings, let alone another child. So whilst Adam was growing up, he felt like an inconvenience to his family. He threw himself into his schoolwork and avoided them as much as possible. He spent all his days studying, his nights drinking until he passed out. A lot of his fellow students didn't understand why he studied so much and took a more relaxed attitude, meaning that he didn't make many friends during school either. He was an easy target for the bullies, who made his life a living hell. They were stalking him, mocking him and the worst thing they did was vandalize his home, which scared his mother a lot. She was worried that the bullying would turn violent and spoke to the school's principal, which made the cackling laughter worse.
To make things worse, when he was fifteen he overheard a casual chat that his parents were having, recalling the shock and dismay that came from when she remembered she was pregnant with Adam and how inconvienent a time it was. They went on to say that they now regretted how bad they had felt and believed each of their children were miracles, but Adam didn't stick around to hear that part. At aged seventeen, he tried to commit suicide. He was taken to hospital and treated for an overdose. Despite being unconscious for most of his treatment, he could remember all the anesthesia they put him under and could recall the moment he knew that he wasn't going anywhere. He could remember the doctors telling his parents he was going to be fine. Seeing the way they cried with joy, Adam knew that he had family to live for. He still suffers from depression but tries to keep some perspective about the people that loved him.
After his recovery, he started bonding more with his family and now wouldn't hurt a fly, let alone himself. He craves more attention and affection than he used to do so that he could reaffirm that he was wanted in the world but the important thing is that he no longer wanted to die. His father helped him as much as he could, remembering from his own education the stress that can occur. Adam finished his teenage years with a strong feeling that he was going to be okay. His original dream was to be a physicist, so he went to university to study physics. His depression was most prominent at this time, as a physics degree was too hard. He didn't understand the course content and struggled with assignments, making him feel hopeless and like he couldn't accomplish anything. This didn't diminish during his second year of his degree, though things were getting slightly easier. He normally needs someone to remind him that he isn't supposed to be good at everything, though during this time he felt like nobody was there to listen.
He graduated with a degree in physics and worked in several different labs for a while before discovering that his real love was automotives. He went back to college to do a short course and obtained a job as a car mechanic. He keeps regular contact with his family and they're pleased to hear that he's found his passion in life. His family life is now happy, so is his professional life. He can't see anything that is missing.
she take the blame, it's always the same.
ALIAS shideh
SOMETHING AWESOME just keep swimming. just keep swimming. just keep swim-ming, swim-ming!
she goes down on her knees and prays
